Having a chronic disease or disability can put a strain on your relationship with your family and friends, and it can also affect your love life. Being single can be depressing enough by itself but can be even worse when you have a medical condition. Hollywood and the media love to glamorize love stories and show us that only people with perfect bodies with zero issues can fall in love. In reality, this isn't true at all. Nobody is perfect, and every one of us has our weaknesses and flaws. We are all human beings, and all of us want to be appreciated and loved.

I was channel surfing and came across the edited version of Fifty Shades of Grey starring Jamie Dornan and Dakota Johnson, and to my shock, I learned the movie is already five years old. Wow. Where does the time go? It seems like yesterday the film was playing at my town's one-screen theater, and it caused a bit of commotion. Why? Well, the theater usually plays only PG or PG-13 films, so a Rated-R flick was a big deal for a small midwestern town. 

It's another sleepless night, and with way too many thoughts in my head, here I am again writing a late at night rambling.

Recently, I realized that there way too many erotic romances out there. Don't get me wrong. I have nothing against these types of books. Over the years, I have read my share of steamy romances, so I understand the appeal. While browsing the small book section at my local Walmart, I noticed most of the romance titles were BDSM romances. And, no, I'm not referring to the trashy Fifty Shades of Grey trilogy by E. L. James. These books seemed to be better written. Or at least that's what I got from reading a few blurbs.

It's nearly midnight, and with nothing else to do, I thought I would write a short rambling, which is more or less an update on my weight loss journey. Well, thanks to many setbacks this year that I won't list here, I am currently back at square one. I haven't gained any weight over the last few months, but I haven't lost any weight either. I'm bouncing back and forth from 218 to 222. My diet is mostly healthy, minus the occasional diet soda, so that's not the problem. My main issue is finding the motivation to exercise, which I have been lacking. In the past, when I had exercised 30 minutes to an hour for 6 to 7 days a week, I dropped the pounds quickly, but I get distracted and fall off course. And jumping back into exercising isn't an easy thing to do. However, it's something that I'm going to have to force myself to do in the early mornings.

Why is it the lonely hearts are the ones who read the most romance novels? Is it because we believe there is a soulmate out there for us? Are we just more romantic than others? Or is it a distraction from our loneliness?